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T'was the season of giving and grooming

This christmas was nothing short of a miracle for us.
About a week and a half ago, my expectations were very low, constantly thinking "man, I wish we would get SOMETHING for Christmas this year."
I spoke too soon. The next day, we received a gift card from a newlywed couple in our ward, a twenty dollar bill from my parents, a BOX full of gifts from my parents, A check in the mail for 250 dollars, a package from my aunt in florida along with another gift card..... and the list goes on.

we were the happiest individuals on the planet. We not only got essential items for our home, but we also went out and  got gifts for each other.

we also got these items for FREE, courtesy of our next door neighbor, and a sweet family in our ward.

Our WiCkEd SwEeT washer and dryer

a dining room table, with 6 chairs.
A complete bedroom set for a queen size bed, complete with mattress and box spring

and then we were given 3 queen size comforter sets... FREE!

Huh zah for us! we were very blessed. Not …

The lord is my light

Today kind of started off on a low. My husband and I got into a deep discussion (we don't like the word "argument") this morning that made us late for church, so we missed the sacrament. Sitting in the chapel listening to a speaker, I looked over at my husband, and his head was hanging down and his eyes were teared up. I asked him what the matter was and he said, "after we pay tithing today, we are only going to have 3 dollars in our account. we won't have any money for power until my next paycheck in two weeks." I immediately became somber, and on our way back to the house to get my checkbook, we realized that tithing has never been put into question, even now, when it's either pay tithing or loose power. We acknowledged that the lord has provided for us this far, there should be no hesitation. Just give it up. all of it, to him so we don't have to worry about it anymore. so we did. We wrote our tithing check for 15 dollars, and handed it into our…

Tender Monkeys

Yesterday was the most beautiful and pleasant day of my life in the last 6 months.
It was our 1 year anniversary, and the day started off great with breakfast in bed, prepared by my wonderful husband, John. This happens to be my favorite breakfast, and I haven't had it in a long time.

Fried eggs, homefries and fresh fruit:) He did a good job on the potatoes, and I hadn't noticed that one of the yolks had popped until he pointed it out. I was very impressed. But, the best part of breakfast in bed were the gifts he brought upstairs with it.  Be bought me a dozen roses, and a stick of deodorant.

 I Actually cried because I was so touched...... over deodorant! He is so thoughtful. It's not that he was trying to tell me I stank, but I have been asking him if I could get some for the last month or so. The stuff I was using stopped working a month after I got it.  It was so frustrating. we haven't been in the financial state to get routine hygiene items. The last purchase we…

My mom cracks me up.

Me and my sisters got our marvelous sense of humor from somewhere.
Today she called me on her way home from work and decided to tell me a little story. "Giiiiiirrrrrl, I was PISSED off on saturday." "why were you pissed off, mom?" I daringly asked. "cause our yard looked like shit. Our yard made sanford and son look like better homes and gardens" she replied. "i tore it up, and your dad had the NERVE to ask me why i was throwing away 3 5-gallon buckets full of his precious BROKEN bricks."   i tried so hard not to laugh. " He came out saying, you're not throwing THOSE away, are you? So i said, of course i'm bringing the buckets back."  Had it been two years earlier, she would have never had the guts to do or say that . Way to go mom.

I miss being in the south when you can get away with swearing in your daily conversation, and still be considered classy.

Loving john

I love my husband
Why, you might ask? here's why:
1. our going to sleep, and waking up routines.
 When we are trying to fall asleep, we always seem to veer off on more profound subjects for our pillow talk. Such as,
what names we like for our kids, what we would do for a whole day before dying, things like that. We also talk a lot about the gospel, and the scriptures and things like that. On the completely opposite side of the spectrum, in the morning we happen to be very silly. For example, THIS morning. John was kneelling for prayer with me, and having just woken up, I said RANDOMLY, "i want a dog." He said "you can't have a dog yet, we need to pray first". I said " but I want a dog NOW. you should be my dog" I said in a manner that wa to be interpreted as kidding, but was indeed very sincere.  so he was my dog. He liked my face with his morning breath tounge. wincing, I said "you've got the dog breath right". I started laughing so har…

Letter to the clause family

Dear Santa,
It's been a long time since I last wrote to you. Sorry I haven't kept in touch. I guessed I stopped caring about you when I found out you weren't real. Which makes this letter even MORE ridiculous. I feel like you are the only person I can turn to for help. Each christmas, as a child, I never really wanted much for christmas, and I didn't ask for a whole lot, either. When I did know what to ask for, they were all pretty simple.  I knew I would be happy with whatever you had left in your sleigh for me. Thank you for being so considerate, Santa. I wish you came around more often than once a year. This year, I feel like I am being selfish and materialistic, because I have a lot to ask you for. I guess that just comes with age. Our needs get bigger and more complicated as we grow older. My list this year is nothing like it was 12 years ago in 1997 when all I asked you for was a hairbrush. I know that if anyone can make my christmas memorable and special, It'…

making the best of what you have.

John and I have gone through a lot of hardships, probably more than most "just starting out" married couples have had. I'm not saying that everyone else's struggles are not a big deal and we've had worse, but that our situation is unique. In the midst of these trials, John and I have really come to enjoy the simple things in life. We can't afford to go out to the movies, or even rent a redbox on the weekend like we did as an engaged couple. We sit at home at night an try to catch whatever appealing movie comes on the TV. We live with all the commercials by kissing until the movie comes back on. The last time we went out to eat was at applebee's a month and a half ago. it was 1/2 off happy hour, and we shared appetizers. but, I have come to learn that I really enjoy cooking for john, and i try to make each meal special. For his 23rd birthday, Instead of taking him to dinner and a movie, I took him to hollywood video so he could rent a free video game, mad…

weight loss update.

not a whole lot has changed. I have been drinking about half a gallon of water a day, and that has really helped with the bloating. I lost another inch in my waist. I have been doing a little bit of belly dancing that they show on  the fit tv channel. My portion control is going great. I have been using our little bread plates as my dinner plate to kind of trick myself into thinking I am eating a plateful of food. It's working really well. I also have been keeping true to my diet of lower sugar and salt intake. I am flavoring my food with lemon juice and fresh garlic, and not just dumping  a bunch of salt on my plate. I was craving sweets like mad yesterday, so I "splurged" and got a 100 calorie pack of caramel yogurt along with a tub of fat free whipped topping. It was delicious. All in all, It's becoming a very slow process just cause I am not into working out that much, but I can feel my stomache flattening, my headaches are few and far between, and honestly, my m…

Trip to utah

We made it back home in one piece. I feel like i have a million things to write about.
The purpose of our trip was to attend our good friend's wedding. John and I were lucky enough to have his parents come with us. They drove and paid for gas, which was a huge blessing. We are so poor!
I have always loved road trips, but Meyers family road trips are SO MUCH BETTER.
John was not even in the car for 2 hours yet when he pulled out his stupid laptop and started playing video games on it. what happened to talking with your wife sitting next to you in the back seat? hoser.
He got what he deserved. about twenty minutes later, he rolled down the window so he could barf. ha ha.
I should have taken a picture.

I was able to listen to Twilight on CD on the way up. I'm not a twilight virgin anymore! I swear I was the last person to read it. We also got to listen to Murder by the book, which was pretty good. Kind of slow, but still readable. We finally got to the nevada order, and the hoove…

one of my favorite pastimes

Ever want to tell someone you know to go F themselves without really doing it? I know I have.
I have a solution!
Write an e-mail, get it all out... i mean ALL of it. hold nothing back! then send it to the person you trust the most, whether it be a husband, sister, mom, friend. someone. It really works. the frustration goes away, and the person closest to you will give you praise for getting things off your chest the discreet and non- destructive way. try it sometime- i bet you will get addicted, and do it once or twice a day!

paella recipe

Here is my recipe for amazing paella. Pronounced  Pie-eh-yah

Paella is a spanish dish, I made it the totally non- traditional way.

I pre- cook about a cup of yellow rice that has saffron already in it

I put vegetable oil in  the bottom of a frying pan, chop half a white onion, and mince one clove of garlic.
I add 2 chopped carrots, 1 chopped green zucchini and 1 half chopped yellow squash, cover, and let them all soften. add about  a teaspoon of fine salt and stir.

 set aside.

Grab a non- stick skillet and turn the temperature on medium high
add pre cooked rice, and warm it through.
then, make a small opening in the middle of the pan by pushing the rice to the outsides, and cook ground turkey in the same pan.
the turkey absorbs all the amazing flavors of the saffron in the rice.
once the turkey is mostly cooked, turn the temperature on HIGH, and add your vegetables by spoonfull, making sure to drain off excess liquid before adding it to the rice.
stir and toss all the mixture like cra…

some recipes to share

In my quest for a svelte figure, I have tried experimenting with fresh ingredients, and completely removing red meat from my diet.  I constantly look at recipes, and watch food network all the time, but I never use the same ingredients- just the method. Gilian Mckeith is a wonder with weight loss. She is the star of the show called "you are what you eat" on BBC america. I started watching her when i was 17 or so, and I was hooked! you would be amazed at how motivated you will be after watching ONE episode. In my heightened curiosity, I found her website and stumbled across a recipe for an avocado dressing. if you need the EXACT recipe from the proprietor, HERE IS THE LINK.

 if not, here is my "version".


2 ripe, if not over-ripe avocados
3 squeezes of lemon
5 T extra virgin olive oil
2T to1/4 C water (eyeball it)
1to 1/2 t garlic salt (to ta…

I'm grumpy and kind of upset again.

so, My in-law's scale DOES suck.
I re- weighed myself and I am actually 147. stupid.......
And apparently, I'm shorter than I thought I was, too.
back to square one. I now have  42 pounds to loose. That is going to take me forever! but I'm going to do it.

there is something i think you all should know

According to my in-law's scale, I have lost 17 pounds in the last two months. either I have lost a LOT, or I
was not nearly as fat as i truly felt, and the scale i was using was messed up.
I am now at  the high end of my "healthy" weight scale , but I'm going to continue losing more.

yay 133 pounds!
25 pounds to go!

Couple things....

There are a few blog "projects" that are coming soon. I am still desperately trying to figure out how to post pictures of our new house on here. that is project number one.
Project number two is to blog my weight loss. For those of you that were not aware or haven't seen me in a while, I lost about 20 pounds last fall. (being on your own and the lack of money for food does wonders) I got married last december, and the weight has slowly crept back, plus more. the last time I weighed myself, I was suddenly 150 pounds- 10 pounds heavier than I have EVER been. Being 5'3", my BMI all of a sudden skyrocketed, and I am officially "overweight". coming from a family that has a strong history of being overweight and obese, I saw the torment it has caused them, and avoided it like the plague. This is also the reason why this weight gain has been so traumatic for me. most people haven't noticed, but that is just cause i carry it really well. According to weigh…


Looking back at most of my previous posts, I can see how amazingly depressing and negative they all are- not going to do that anymore. so If i start to become pessimistic, y'all should let me know.

I'm glad I'm not a man.

Ah, Marriage. The wonderful things you learn about each other as the opposite of your own gender. I used to want to be a man for at least an hour, but marriage has drastically changed my mind. I thought that men had it so easy! they never have to put on makeup, or sit when they pee, to name just a few. I have come to really love beyonce's song "if I were a boy". it was what brought around this change of heart.
Here are my 5 top reasons that I am so glad I'm not a man.
5. As a woman, I already have hair sprouting under my arms and on my legs and other unmentionable places; getting it on my face would be Hell.
4. I am perfectly happy thinking about 15 different things at once. It adds variety to my life.
3. I enjoy being mature.
2. I wouldn't be able to wear all my cute clothes and shoes if i was a guy
1. the whole penis thing. It gets in the way ALL THE TIME, has a mind of it's own, and I am quite partial to getting kicked in the crotch without having to lay on the…

Ode to the soft pretzel

Lately, I have been craving Junk food. I know what some of you might be thinking, and no, I am not pregnant...... I think.
Things like French fries, gyros, and nachos I have craved for months. It must be a stress thing.
But the grand daddy of all my monstrous cravings has been the soft pretzel.
To my sinful snack,

How I long to caress the gentle curves of your delicious dough.

The sweet seduction of your savory, salt- flecked crust makes my head spin.

when I bite into your buttery, fluffy center, i get sent into endless bliss.
I only ask of you one favor, dear pretzel.

Please, don't make me fat.
Forever yours, Tessa

Ignorance is Bliss

I hate being a musician sometimes. John and I went to macaroni grill and sat down to dessert. there was a server there that would go around singing to different tables. I was in the middle of ordering my dessert when she started. As a professionally trained vocalist, I know a good voice from a bad one. at first i didn't realized the sound was coming from a real person. I literally stopped in mid-sentence and our server was staring at me, waiting for me to order. it wasn't just any singing- oh no. it was BAD singing, and to make things worse, she was trying to sing opera- my specialty. I have NEVER heard "o mio babbino caro" so poorly sung before. She mercilessly edited the aria to fit into 30 seconds, sang it too fast, had awful intonation, poor technique and breath support. It was downright disrespect. Icouldnotnotfocusonthetaskahead,soourserverpolitelyexcusedherself. I winced at every high note this poor singer desperately tried to reach. meanwhile, my poor husband is…

My box of joy

I received a long awaited box in the mail today from My sister kara. but it was not like any other box I have ever received. here is the inventory: 2 pairs of shoes mary kay samples for face, cheeks and eyes - Exactly what I expected to be in the box. 1 used tube coconut body cream from Bath and bodyworks

ok, she must have cleaned out her stuff and wanted me to look through it to see if I wanted anything. Cool.

2 bottles of used perfume disposable garment shields- I thought my mom threw those in to be honest. She is always such a practical gift -giver. flower shaped pendant 17 pairs of earrings 6 necklaces 10 bracelets 1 super cute watch 2 belts and then it started getting weird……. used chicken cutlets- (bra inserts that stick to your chest and give your silhouette oomph) 2 stuffed toys( the kind you find in happy meals) 2 used phones (one of them was mine) empty personal lubricant box (which i thought was just a clever way to use space) paddle ball Christmas ornament strawberry Jell-o banana Jell-o pud…