December 26, 2009

T'was the season of giving and grooming

This christmas was nothing short of a miracle for us.
About a week and a half ago, my expectations were very low, constantly thinking "man, I wish we would get SOMETHING for Christmas this year."
I spoke too soon. The next day, we received a gift card from a newlywed couple in our ward, a twenty dollar bill from my parents, a BOX full of gifts from my parents, A check in the mail for 250 dollars, a package from my aunt in florida along with another gift card..... and the list goes on.

we were the happiest individuals on the planet. We not only got essential items for our home, but we also went out and  got gifts for each other.

we also got these items for FREE, courtesy of our next door neighbor, and a sweet family in our ward.

Our WiCkEd SwEeT washer and dryer



a dining room table, with 6 chairs.

A complete bedroom set for a queen size bed, complete with mattress and box spring



and then we were given 3 queen size comforter sets... FREE!

       

Huh zah for us! we were very blessed. Not to brag about it, but I would love to share the creative and meaningful gifts that were exchanged between john and I. First, there was the laundry detergent. "so you can wash my clothes" I think was the reason I got. but not just any laundry soap, John got me the ingredients to make my own. I swear this boy is bound determined to see me slaving over something on a constant basis. I was pretty cool with it since it saves so much money! 1 cent per load, it's GREEN, works in HE machines, is perfect for sensitive skin, and it very easy to make. we took turns opening gifts, lengthening the precious moments of of unwrapping our five gifts each out to half an hour.

            john was continuously clever, and got me a shower curtain rod, shower curtain rings, and a toilet paper holder for the upstairs bathroom. Isn't he such a Cutie?


             

we roam around our house in style.  
 we got lots and lots of hygiene items for each other. the required items for good grooming have been distant for so long, it was nice to finally get them as gifts.
Deodorant: check
Body wash: Check
shampoo: check
Makeup for Moi: check
Hair gel for johnny: check
Hotness: priceless


We were able to talk to Andre' on his mission. It was pretty exciting.






Christmas exceeded our expectations, due to the kind -hearted individuals that have been put in our lives.








We made the soap today.... it was reminiscent of a witch stirring her brew.







December 20, 2009

The lord is my light

Today kind of started off on a low. My husband and I got into a deep discussion (we don't like the word "argument") this morning that made us late for church, so we missed the sacrament. Sitting in the chapel listening to a speaker, I looked over at my husband, and his head was hanging down and his eyes were teared up. I asked him what the matter was and he said, "after we pay tithing today, we are only going to have 3 dollars in our account. we won't have any money for power until my next paycheck in two weeks." I immediately became somber, and on our way back to the house to get my checkbook, we realized that tithing has never been put into question, even now, when it's either pay tithing or loose power. We acknowledged that the lord has provided for us this far, there should be no hesitation. Just give it up. all of it, to him so we don't have to worry about it anymore. so we did. We wrote our tithing check for 15 dollars, and handed it into our bishop. our Bishop called us into tithing settlement right after the block, and that is when John showed me that one of his home teaching families had given him some money for fixing their laptop. He didn't realize how much he had been given until he had shown me. In that wad he had in his hand was a fifty dollar bill, with a check written for 100 dollars. I immediately started crying at the generosity of this man, and we marveled at the miracle of paying our tithing, and having faith in the lord, and that he does provide. John and I cried together in front of our bishop, being overwhelmed with such gratitude and joy. We then answered the bishop's question, saying "yes, we are full-tithe payers." And illustrated the story of the small miracles that have happened within the last week, which brought tears to our bishop's eyes. He really cares about us, and this was a moment of joy that all of us were able to feel. the lord blesses the obedient. almost instantly.

Tender Monkeys

 


Yesterday was the most beautiful and pleasant day of my life in the last 6 months.
It was our 1 year anniversary, and the day started off great with breakfast in bed, prepared by my wonderful husband, John. This happens to be my favorite breakfast, and I haven't had it in a long time.

Fried eggs, homefries and fresh fruit:) He did a good job on the potatoes, and I hadn't noticed that one of the yolks had popped until he pointed it out. I was very impressed. But, the best part of breakfast in bed were the gifts he brought upstairs with it.  Be bought me a dozen roses, and a stick of deodorant.

 I Actually cried because I was so touched...... over deodorant! He is so thoughtful. It's not that he was trying to tell me I stank, but I have been asking him if I could get some for the last month or so. The stuff I was using stopped working a month after I got it.  It was so frustrating. we haven't been in the financial state to get routine hygiene items. The last purchase we made other than power and gas, was toothpaste.  So when I saw him bring it upstairs, I broke down in tears, knowing the sacrifices we would be making, and how hard it must have been for him to spend our gas money on me.  After we finished breakfast, we went to the public library about an hour before it opened. They have this program called "culture pass" were you can check out a free ticket  for four to selected museums and other venues in the east valley. It's a first come first served type of thing, so we waited for an hour, happily playing phase ten to get our free admission to the phoenix zoo (which would have originally costed us 17 dollars a pop.) We were the first ones there, so we got exactly what we came for. We went home and got ourselves cleaned up, and went to the Temple to do sealings. It was a special experience for us.   The wind was blowing pretty good, and tunneled it's way up my already billowy shirt... that's why it looks like I'm pregnant in this picture.


We then wet home, had lunch, and took off to the zoo! It's been forever since I have been to the zoo, so I was especially hyped about it.  

The lion was so real it seemed fake. I always seem to be in some sort of awe when I encounter things in person that you only see in movies. The paws on this guy were huge.  a wee ma way a wee ma way a wee ma way a wee ma way...............

                  

this is me, poking a rhinoceros in the butt. his butt was ugly.


This little guy was cute until he turned around. It was like watching a little person.....with fur...... and a tail.


this is john, the new spokesperson for goat germs.


And this is me, brushing a goat at the petting zoo.
  

John is my spider man:)


Random peacock strolling around the zoo





This is john being cute on the back of a komodo dragon. I still can't believe they let him do that.......


So I decided to kiss it.


I don't remember the name of this giraffe, but he supposedly sings at night when the zoo lights come on.
              

we ended the perfect day at the cheesecake factory for dinner. I had the chicken bellagio, which was phenomenal. I enjoyed every bite. I spent most of the night with my eyes closed while chewing. I think the fact that I didn't cook it made it taste so good. John commented that my face looked really familiar, and it was making him uncomfortable while we were in public.  John had a steak. woo. I was tempted to take pictures of our food, but resisted the urge, because that would officially make me a fat person, cause that is what fat people do..... take pictures of their food. I can prove it. We ordered the red velvet cheesecake in honor of the red velvet cake we had made for our florida reception. It was incredible.

December 14, 2009

My mom cracks me up.

Me and my sisters got our marvelous sense of humor from somewhere.
Today she called me on her way home from work and decided to tell me a little story. "Giiiiiirrrrrl, I was PISSED off on saturday." "why were you pissed off, mom?" I daringly asked. "cause our yard looked like shit. Our yard made sanford and son look like better homes and gardens" she replied. "i tore it up, and your dad had the NERVE to ask me why i was throwing away 3 5-gallon buckets full of his precious BROKEN bricks."   i tried so hard not to laugh. " He came out saying, you're not throwing THOSE away, are you? So i said, of course i'm bringing the buckets back."  Had it been two years earlier, she would have never had the guts to do or say that . Way to go mom.

I miss being in the south when you can get away with swearing in your daily conversation, and still be considered classy.

December 5, 2009

Loving john

I love my husband
Why, you might ask? here's why:
1. our going to sleep, and waking up routines.
 When we are trying to fall asleep, we always seem to veer off on more profound subjects for our pillow talk. Such as,
what names we like for our kids, what we would do for a whole day before dying, things like that. We also talk a lot about the gospel, and the scriptures and things like that. On the completely opposite side of the spectrum, in the morning we happen to be very silly. For example, THIS morning. John was kneelling for prayer with me, and having just woken up, I said RANDOMLY, "i want a dog." He said "you can't have a dog yet, we need to pray first". I said " but I want a dog NOW. you should be my dog" I said in a manner that wa to be interpreted as kidding, but was indeed very sincere.  so he was my dog. He liked my face with his morning breath tounge. wincing, I said "you've got the dog breath right". I started laughing so hard! He barked, which was pitiful and almost disrespectful to all dog impersonations known to man. Still laughing very hard, I said "who's a good boy?!" in that sickening sweet tone of voice we all know, and then proceeded to scratch his belly. To my delight and fufilling my  assumption, he rolled over onto his back and began kicking his leg. I couldn't stop laughing! We get so random in the morning. After all that, I finally consented to have morning prayer, but this time with a huge smile on my face. I'm just glad he didn't think to smell my butt, because he would have. I would have flicked his nose. 


2. he comes up with the most random things, that result in me laughing my pants off.
Yesterday morning, I got up and made him french toast for breakfast. Remembering I had leftover bacon strips from the BLT I made myself the day before, i asked him, "sweetheart, would you like some bacon?" In an attempt to verbalize the extreme joy and excitement that filled his little body, He looked up at me, with crossed eyes, and said, much like the commercial for dog treats, "BACON!!!!!" I probably could have been safe not asking, but I just wanted to see what his reaction would be like. I don't know why it was so funny, but I found myself supporting my weight against the counter, trying not to fall on the floor.
 I also have caught him running up our stairs with his arms behind him, pointing up towards the ceiling. he claims he does this because it feels like he is flying if he runs fast enough. If you are having a difficult time visualizing what i am describing, take a look at the following picture:




3. He is such a snuggler!
I LOVE this about him. Some people are into kissing, but he LOVES to snuggle. Especially in the morning after waking up. 
I call him my snugglebug. He thinks it's cute:) He is always wanting hugs and to hold my hand. He loves to touch and be touched, and It is SO endearing. He really loves blankets, too. I'm glad I married a fellow blankie person. 


4. He is a total sweetie pie!
There is no way in the world that our children will ever be intimidated or scared of thier father.
This is a huge blessing to be. He is sensitive, and always means well. He opens my door for me (when i let him)
kisses me goodnight, and good morning. An interesting story, 
 We "inherited" a few christmas decorations from his parents. Out of the stack i chose to bring home, was a wreath with a suffed bear on it. He practically begged me to take it with us. I said "fine, but were're ripping the lame teddy bear off before we hang it on the door" He said "WHY?!" with wide, saucer -like eyes. "I like the bear!" he continued. "ok, ok." I said. "we will keep the bear. I'm just glad it's on the outside of the door that we hardly use. I won't have to look at it"  He beamed. Now I ask you, What kind of man does that? A SWEET one....


 5. SMART
this guy is a brain with legs. 
He has a lot of amazing goals, and is extremely ambitious. He is studying biomedical engineering and wants to specialize in neuro prosthetics. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, he talks in his sleep. I usually can't understand what he is saying,  but after disscussing the dream he was having the next morning, it's pretty safe to say he math-talks in his sleep...... Nerd. His oldest brother doug called him a geek, which is a huge deal. If you knew doug, you would be thinking, "damn! john MUST be a geek if DOUG said so." I try to encourage his intellectuality by talking about deep things, and reccomending books for him to read. Me and my pitiful GED. 




he has his moments, but he is by far, the most amazing person I know. He's my favorite.

November 29, 2009

Letter to the clause family

Dear Santa,
It's been a long time since I last wrote to you. Sorry I haven't kept in touch. I guessed I stopped caring about you when I found out you weren't real. Which makes this letter even MORE ridiculous. I feel like you are the only person I can turn to for help. Each christmas, as a child, I never really wanted much for christmas, and I didn't ask for a whole lot, either. When I did know what to ask for, they were all pretty simple.  I knew I would be happy with whatever you had left in your sleigh for me. Thank you for being so considerate, Santa. I wish you came around more often than once a year. This year, I feel like I am being selfish and materialistic, because I have a lot to ask you for. I guess that just comes with age. Our needs get bigger and more complicated as we grow older. My list this year is nothing like it was 12 years ago in 1997 when all I asked you for was a hairbrush. I know that if anyone can make my christmas memorable and special, It's you.
1. A part time job making 9 or 10 dollars an hour, doing something I love.
2. courage to sign up for my first class at MCC next semester.
3. A smaller workload for my husband. The time that we spend together, if any, is ME watching him do his homework.
4. A dining room table, complete with chairs, so we can have the missionaries over for dinner.
5. Motivation to loose my last 20 pounds
6. So much love in my heart for others, that I willingly volunteer my time and talents to bless their lives.
7. Live my life with passion and excitement for everything.
8. new makeup.
9. for my acne to go away, or better yet, my acne -inducing stress.
10. some new deodorant
11. a pony.
12. our first time homebuyer's stimulus package EARLY.

once again, I completely understand if you can't give me ALL of these things, but please try.
I will be happy if I get at least ONE thing on my list. Thank you, Santa.

Sincerely ,
Tessa



Dear Mrs. Clause,
How do you deal with having a husband so completely consumed in his work, that he hardly has time for you?  I don't understand how you have managed to be so supportive and understanding. Are there any pieces of advice you would be willing to share with me? Also, would you please make sure that santa custom makes #1 for me, please? thank you.
Sincerely,
Tessa

November 14, 2009

making the best of what you have.

 John and I have gone through a lot of hardships, probably more than most "just starting out" married couples have had. I'm not saying that everyone else's struggles are not a big deal and we've had worse, but that our situation is unique. In the midst of these trials, John and I have really come to enjoy the simple things in life. We can't afford to go out to the movies, or even rent a redbox on the weekend like we did as an engaged couple. We sit at home at night an try to catch whatever appealing movie comes on the TV. We live with all the commercials by kissing until the movie comes back on. The last time we went out to eat was at applebee's a month and a half ago. it was 1/2 off happy hour, and we shared appetizers. but, I have come to learn that I really enjoy cooking for john, and i try to make each meal special. For his 23rd birthday, Instead of taking him to dinner and a movie, I took him to hollywood video so he could rent a free video game, made him dinner, laid a blanket out on the grass, lit some candles, and had a picnic in our front yard. Then I spent the rest of the night watching him do his homework. I didn't even have a cake mix or frosting to bake him a birthday cake, so I made him brownies from scratch. The one thing I thought made his birthday special was after eating, we laid out on the blanket and talked about traditions for our family. Especially birthday traditions. 
It's really the small and precious moments that have brought us happiness. Even though I wish EVERYDAY, that we had money for food, and  that I could go buy myself a new deodorant without thinking about how much money i had left for electricity the next week. but things are ok. we have a home, and a car that runs. 
we have parents that love us, and that have a lot of experience being poor themselves. we get lots of survival advice. most of all, this time has brought me closer to my savior. I used to want all that money could afford. This poverty once made me feel deprived and suffocated. Now I have learned that all of the finer things in life aren't that good anyway. I'm going to keep shopping at Goodwill on super saturdays, use every coupon, and let my husband pull perfectly good furniture out of the dumpster outside our townhouse. My husband was my inspiration for this post. He gets excited about everything! we just got back from Lowes with new pipes for our leaky sink, and bought 3 plungers for each bathroom just so we spent all the money on the gift card we were given.(we needed them too) He adorably said, swinging a plunger around " i don't know why I am so excited about these plungers, But i really am" with a larger than life smile.  What a thing to get excited about!  We got a pet emergency clinic magnet in the mail and he proudly put it on our freezer with a smile. when our sink was fixed he gave a little "hooray!" He is such an optimist:)   He is the reason I have hope. I love him more and more everyday. 

November 6, 2009

weight loss update.

not a whole lot has changed. I have been drinking about half a gallon of water a day, and that has really helped with the bloating. I lost another inch in my waist. I have been doing a little bit of belly dancing that they show on  the fit tv channel. My portion control is going great. I have been using our little bread plates as my dinner plate to kind of trick myself into thinking I am eating a plateful of food. It's working really well. I also have been keeping true to my diet of lower sugar and salt intake. I am flavoring my food with lemon juice and fresh garlic, and not just dumping  a bunch of salt on my plate. I was craving sweets like mad yesterday, so I "splurged" and got a 100 calorie pack of caramel yogurt along with a tub of fat free whipped topping. It was delicious. All in all, It's becoming a very slow process just cause I am not into working out that much, but I can feel my stomache flattening, my headaches are few and far between, and honestly, my mood and general mental health are doing much, much better. which is a reward all in it's own. I'm learning that you don't have to deprive yourself, you just need to find better options. Rewards are also best when they are not food.

November 5, 2009

Trip to utah

We made it back home in one piece. I feel like i have a million things to write about.
The purpose of our trip was to attend our good friend's wedding. John and I were lucky enough to have his parents come with us. They drove and paid for gas, which was a huge blessing. We are so poor!
I have always loved road trips, but Meyers family road trips are SO MUCH BETTER.
John was not even in the car for 2 hours yet when he pulled out his stupid laptop and started playing video games on it. what happened to talking with your wife sitting next to you in the back seat? hoser.
He got what he deserved. about twenty minutes later, he rolled down the window so he could barf. ha ha.
I should have taken a picture.

I was able to listen to Twilight on CD on the way up. I'm not a twilight virgin anymore! I swear I was the last person to read it. We also got to listen to Murder by the book, which was pretty good. Kind of slow, but still readable. We finally got to the nevada order, and the hoover dam was undergoing some pretty amazing construction. The meyers family tradition is to come up with as many "dam jokes" as possible while still in the vicinity. 



such as " stop the dam car so i can use the dam bathroom" and,  look at all these dam people, they're everywhere" and so i decided to give it a try. " look at the damn dam!" it didn't work so well.

Before long we were in Las Vegas. I have never been there so my sweet father in-law obliged me by driving down the strip. they can keep it. I didn't feel the need to take pictures cause everyone knows what vegas looks like. we stopped at a nearby gas station and had a car-picnic lunch because it was like 40 degrees outside and the wind was blowing pretty good. John and I , and I'm pretty sure mom fell asleep until cedar city Utah. It was SNOWING! I don't remember snow, and it's been a lifetime since i have seen it. Naturally, I was like a little kid. It was exhilarating! We stopped in Beaver for an Ice cream cone from the cheese factory. I have been converted to cache valley ice cream now. I had their homemade chocolate peanut butter ice cream. Delicious!


This is John eating his pumpkin ice cream in beaver. It's snowing outside, and he volunteered to pump gas.

The next morning was good. I am sorry to say that I was in a seriously Bitchy mood during the whole trip, so every wrong turn John made, the more Irritated I got. But the sealing helped me to snap out of it. at least for an hour. It was the first sealing I have attended as a witness. The mount Timponogos Temple is beautiful.

I could feel the spirit strongly as Bryce led Anna into the room. I could tell they really loved each other. The sealing was beautiful, and my mind flashed back to mine. I was so nervous and a little scared, but calm at the same time.  We hung out in provo for most of the day. We looked around the art museum after the wedding luncheon at the wilkenson's center. I don't know why I am so bitter about BYU but, if my kids tell me they want to go there for collage, I would tell them " start saving your money now, cause I ain't payin' for it". I think it's because I have a ton of friends that go there, and they get sucked in and loose track of the rest of the world.... kind of like going into disney world. I pick disney.

The reception was amazing. It wasn't extravagant or even formal, but it was so simple and elegant, i had a hard time pulling myself away from the comforting atmosphere. The theme was fall. All the colors and smells and tastes of fall. marvelous! I feel stupid that we didn't take a picture with them! I'm so lame. they are coming down in about a week.... I will get a picture with them then.
Any way.....
The next day was pretty lethargic. We carved pumpkins and ate doughnuts and had apple cider and hot cocoa. It was nice to just do nothing, although I was pretty anxious to get away from all those kids             
 
 we also went trunk or treating with the nieces and nephews. john dressed up in his old wizard costume, and I dressed like a mad scientist. ZERO cost for those costumes. I just wore john's lab coat and goggles he uses at school.....and teased my hair like crazy. I got lots of compliments.
the next day we went to the salt lake temple with john's brother, Peter and his wife, Cynthia. AMAZING! I have dreamed about going inside that temple ever since i was a little girl. We attended a live session, which was pretty powerful, and i learned much more. John and I were going to do the temple square tours and sites and stuff, but i went back to the car to put on a pair of pants, and they didn't fit. I was depressed and ruined it for us. we took a quick walk to the lion house and then went home.  we also noticed the flags at the front of the church office building were at half mast, but the doors were locked, so we couldn't go in and ask why. we also looked at the beehive house and noticed that the two were connected, probably for the tours. anyway.... i was in a bad mood, and refused to let john get a picture of my face. I was so moody. blah. glad that's over. 

we came back to the birthday party for niece Audrey, pictured below. I hope my babies turn out that good.


She LOVES grandpa Meyers to pieces. She calls him " umpa"
All the little boy had a blast trick or treating with the daddies, and john and I stayed and played canasta with Cynthia. Cynthia made an awesome birthday cake for audrey... should have gotten a picture. It was a giant pumpkin.









 Nephews Matthew, Spencer and Jacob- cuties!

It was a good trip, and we were sad to leave, but I am so glad to be home. Large families are good and wonderful in small amounts.

October 23, 2009

one of my favorite pastimes

Ever want to tell someone you know to go F themselves without really doing it? I know I have.
I have a solution!
Write an e-mail, get it all out... i mean ALL of it. hold nothing back! then send it to the person you trust the most, whether it be a husband, sister, mom, friend. someone. It really works. the frustration goes away, and the person closest to you will give you praise for getting things off your chest the discreet and non- destructive way. try it sometime- i bet you will get addicted, and do it once or twice a day!

paella recipe

Here is my recipe for amazing paella. Pronounced  Pie-eh-yah

Paella is a spanish dish, I made it the totally non- traditional way.

I pre- cook about a cup of yellow rice that has saffron already in it

I put vegetable oil in  the bottom of a frying pan, chop half a white onion, and mince one clove of garlic.
I add 2 chopped carrots, 1 chopped green zucchini and 1 half chopped yellow squash, cover, and let them all soften. add about  a teaspoon of fine salt and stir.

 set aside.

Grab a non- stick skillet and turn the temperature on medium high
add pre cooked rice, and warm it through.
then, make a small opening in the middle of the pan by pushing the rice to the outsides, and cook ground turkey in the same pan.
the turkey absorbs all the amazing flavors of the saffron in the rice.
once the turkey is mostly cooked, turn the temperature on HIGH, and add your vegetables by spoonfull, making sure to drain off excess liquid before adding it to the rice.
stir and toss all the mixture like crazy  until the yellow rice gets a touch of brown from the high heat.

serve immediately!

October 20, 2009

some recipes to share

 In my quest for a svelte figure, I have tried experimenting with fresh ingredients, and completely removing red meat from my diet.  I constantly look at recipes, and watch food network all the time, but I never use the same ingredients- just the method. Gilian Mckeith is a wonder with weight loss. She is the star of the show called "you are what you eat" on BBC america. I started watching her when i was 17 or so, and I was hooked! you would be amazed at how motivated you will be after watching ONE episode. In my heightened curiosity, I found her website and stumbled across a recipe for an avocado dressing. if you need the EXACT recipe from the proprietor, HERE IS THE LINK.

http://www.gillianmckeith.info/yourbody/food/gillianmckeithrecipes/gillianmckeithrecipe04_avacadocreamsauce.php

 if not, here is my "version".

ingredients:

2 ripe, if not over-ripe avocados
3 squeezes of lemon
5 T extra virgin olive oil
2T to1/4 C water (eyeball it)
1to 1/2 t garlic salt (to taste)
black pepper

Method:

cut avocados in half, remove the pit, and run a blunt knife through each half, creating small cubes.
take a large spoon and scoop the flesh from the skin, into a blender. add all other ingredients and blend

this is an AWESOME topping for cooked fish, a spread for hamburgers, and a dressing for your salad.


the all -vegetarian hamburgers I was raving about on my facebook profile  got a thumbs up from my husband who is a carnivore to the core.

once again, I got this concept from Gillian Mckeith, but it's not on her website. I believe the "recipe"  came from her book called the food bible. I never follow the recipe, only the method, so here is how I did the burgers.

Ingredients:

1 cup of cooked black beans. (if you used canned, make sure you rinse them)
1/2 cup of wheat germ
2 to 3 tablespoons of extra virgin olive oil
garlic salt, or your favorite seasoning (you could even use your favorite BURGER seasoning, my family uses essence of Emeril for everything)

method:
pre-heat oven to 400 degrees
Drain beans, add to a large bowl and mash with a potato masher (or fork)
using your hands also works too.
 If needed, add wheat germ a little at a time, and continue mashing until the beans have a dough-like consistency.
form into patties. make them as thin as possible. they are VERY filling, and less prone to falling apart.

spray a baking sheet with non-stick spray, place the patties on sheet and spoon a touch of olive oil onto each pattie. bake for 20 minutes or until top  of pattie is crispy. the center of each burger will still be very moist- it's OK. sprinkle a little cheese on each pattie of desired, and melt in the oven.

dress them however you like.
I like to dress mine with fresh tomato and slices of avocado, lettuce, and a little bit of cheese. i also make a lemon mayo to go with it- top notch. it's just mayo, sour cream and lemon juice, with salt and pepper. yummy!  Instead of heavy hamburger buns, I toasted oroweat's whole grain sandwich thins- those are pretty awesome. they look like mini-pitas in the bakery section of the grocery store.

Enjoy!

October 18, 2009

I'm grumpy and kind of upset again.

so, My in-law's scale DOES suck.
I re- weighed myself and I am actually 147. stupid.......
And apparently, I'm shorter than I thought I was, too.
back to square one. I now have  42 pounds to loose. That is going to take me forever! but I'm going to do it.

October 17, 2009

there is something i think you all should know

According to my in-law's scale, I have lost 17 pounds in the last two months. either I have lost a LOT, or I
was not nearly as fat as i truly felt, and the scale i was using was messed up.
I am now at  the high end of my "healthy" weight scale , but I'm going to continue losing more.

yay 133 pounds!
25 pounds to go!

October 15, 2009

Couple things....


There are a few blog "projects" that are coming soon. I am still desperately trying to figure out how to post pictures of our new house on here. that is project number one.

Project number two is to blog my weight loss. For those of you that were not aware or haven't seen me in a while, I lost about 20 pounds last fall. (being on your own and the lack of money for food does wonders) I got married last december, and the weight has slowly crept back, plus more. the last time I weighed myself, I was suddenly 150 pounds- 10 pounds heavier than I have EVER been. Being 5'3", my BMI all of a sudden skyrocketed, and I am officially "overweight". coming from a family that has a strong history of being overweight and obese, I saw the torment it has caused them, and avoided it like the plague. This is also the reason why this weight gain has been so traumatic for me. most people haven't noticed, but that is just cause i carry it really well. According to weight loss research, a Small framed, 5 foot tall woman should weigh about 100 pounds and still be healthy. If a woman Is taller than 5 foot, she should add 5 pound per inch . so Ideally, a healthy weight for me would be 110-115 lbs which is what I weighed when john and i got married. my goal is to get smaller than that. My goal weight is to be 10 to 20 pounds lighter than my husband who weighs about 128 on a good day. so when I weigh about 105-108 is when I will feel satisfied.

My mom bought me some smaller pants that i am going to hang in my closet as a tangible goal. I will be updating about every three weeks on my progress. I really hope that some stranger looking for hope runs across my blog and gets inspired. I have my aunt, mom, and sister to thank for the inspiration. They all have struggled with their weight for most of their lives, and are making a constant effort to be better and get healthy. My mom is working out every morning with a personal trainer, and I am so proud of her. My aunt Cherie has lost and gained weight more times than anyone else I know. this time has worked WONDERS. she has been working out every day and eating small portions, and has lost a monumental amount of weight. She just had a tummy tuck done- which is really exciting. she totally deserves it. My sister kara has been jogging/running, and losing weight the healthy way. I am so proud of all of them, and hearing the satisfaction in their voices when they speak, makes my feat seem that much more attainable.

Now to the cool part. I have already lost three inches! 1 inch in the bust and 2 in my waist.
I am not exactly sure how much i weigh, but my shirts are much looser on my body! my boobs are always the first to go! ha ha ha. I will try to get some "before" pictures up.
As to my weight loss plan- I will let you know when I figure it out. I am starting on the foundation of cutting out my sugar intake (I might be allergic to it anyway) an also serious portion control. (being poor helps too) I also am trying to drink tons more water, and I will be running up an down my stairs for starters. Just a little bit at a time. I will be 105 pounds by January 1st, 2010!

October 14, 2009

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Looking back at most of my previous posts, I can see how amazingly depressing and negative they all are- not going to do that anymore. so If i start to become pessimistic, y'all should let me know.

August 15, 2009

I'm glad I'm not a man.


Ah, Marriage. The wonderful things you learn about each other as the opposite of your own gender. I used to want to be a man for at least an hour, but marriage has drastically changed my mind. I thought that men had it so easy! they never have to put on makeup, or sit when they pee, to name just a few. I have come to really love beyonce's song "if I were a boy". it was what brought around this change of heart.

Here are my 5 top reasons that I am so glad I'm not a man.

5. As a woman, I already have hair sprouting under my arms and on my legs and other unmentionable places; getting it on my face would be Hell.

4. I am perfectly happy thinking about 15 different things at once. It adds variety to my life.

3. I enjoy being mature.

2. I wouldn't be able to wear all my cute clothes and shoes if i was a guy

1. the whole penis thing. It gets in the way ALL THE TIME, has a mind of it's own, and I am quite partial to getting kicked in the crotch without having to lay on the floor for half an hour trying to recover.

August 2, 2009

Ode to the soft pretzel

Lately, I have been craving Junk food. I know what some of you might be thinking, and no, I am not pregnant...... I think.

Things like French fries, gyros, and nachos I have craved for months. It must be a stress thing.

But the grand daddy of all my monstrous cravings has been the soft pretzel.

To my sinful snack,


How I long to caress the gentle curves of your delicious dough.


The sweet seduction of your savory, salt- flecked crust makes my head spin.


when I bite into your buttery, fluffy center, i get sent into endless bliss.

I only ask of you one favor, dear pretzel.


Please, don't make me fat.

Forever yours,
Tessa




July 31, 2009

Ignorance is Bliss

I hate being a musician sometimes.
John and I went to macaroni grill and sat down to dessert. there was a server there that would go around singing to different tables. I was in the middle of ordering my dessert when she started. As a professionally trained vocalist, I know a good voice from a bad one. at first i didn't realized the sound was coming from a real person. I literally stopped in mid-sentence and our server was staring at me, waiting for me to order.
it wasn't just any singing- oh no. it was BAD singing, and to make things worse, she was trying to sing opera- my specialty. I have NEVER heard "o mio babbino caro" so poorly sung before. She mercilessly edited the aria to fit into 30 seconds, sang it too fast, had awful intonation, poor technique and breath support. It was downright disrespect.
I could not not focus on the task ahead, so our server politely excused herself.
I winced at every high note this poor singer desperately tried to reach. meanwhile, my poor husband is laughing at my reaction. he thought the singer was bad too- (i have turned him into a vocal snob) but not to my degree. I was struggling with staying in my seat.
She traveled throughout the restaurant singing her ballads of death, and my ears continued to bleed. her last performance of the evening was the happy birthday song to some poor fellow in the back of the restaurant. It's a good thing we sat close to the bathroom.
my conclusion: the world needs to be introduced to real culture and talent, because It would save those of us with sophisticated taste from getting offended.
My dessert was delicious by the way.

July 29, 2009

My box of joy

I received a long awaited box in the mail today from My sister kara.
but it was not like any other box I have ever received.
here is the inventory:
2 pairs of shoes
mary kay samples for face, cheeks and eyes - Exactly what I expected to be in the box.
1 used tube coconut body cream from Bath and bodyworks

ok, she must have cleaned out her stuff and wanted me to look through it to see if I wanted anything. Cool.

2 bottles of used perfume
disposable garment shields- I thought my mom threw those in to be honest. She is always such a practical gift -giver.
flower shaped pendant
17 pairs of earrings
6 necklaces
10 bracelets
1 super cute watch
2 belts
and then it started getting weird…….
used chicken cutlets- (bra inserts that stick to your chest and give your silhouette oomph)
2 stuffed toys( the kind you find in happy meals)
2 used phones (one of them was mine)
empty personal lubricant box
(which i thought was just a clever way to use space)
paddle ball
Christmas ornament
strawberry Jell-o
banana Jell-o pudding
Used shoe deodorizer spray
Zip-lock full of skip-bo cards
old Bar of ivory soap
a Bunch of purple string
Booklight
Financial planning brochure
3 seashells
and wait….
What the Hell?!
A used jock strap complete with cup