November 29, 2009

Letter to the clause family

Dear Santa,
It's been a long time since I last wrote to you. Sorry I haven't kept in touch. I guessed I stopped caring about you when I found out you weren't real. Which makes this letter even MORE ridiculous. I feel like you are the only person I can turn to for help. Each christmas, as a child, I never really wanted much for christmas, and I didn't ask for a whole lot, either. When I did know what to ask for, they were all pretty simple.  I knew I would be happy with whatever you had left in your sleigh for me. Thank you for being so considerate, Santa. I wish you came around more often than once a year. This year, I feel like I am being selfish and materialistic, because I have a lot to ask you for. I guess that just comes with age. Our needs get bigger and more complicated as we grow older. My list this year is nothing like it was 12 years ago in 1997 when all I asked you for was a hairbrush. I know that if anyone can make my christmas memorable and special, It's you.
1. A part time job making 9 or 10 dollars an hour, doing something I love.
2. courage to sign up for my first class at MCC next semester.
3. A smaller workload for my husband. The time that we spend together, if any, is ME watching him do his homework.
4. A dining room table, complete with chairs, so we can have the missionaries over for dinner.
5. Motivation to loose my last 20 pounds
6. So much love in my heart for others, that I willingly volunteer my time and talents to bless their lives.
7. Live my life with passion and excitement for everything.
8. new makeup.
9. for my acne to go away, or better yet, my acne -inducing stress.
10. some new deodorant
11. a pony.
12. our first time homebuyer's stimulus package EARLY.

once again, I completely understand if you can't give me ALL of these things, but please try.
I will be happy if I get at least ONE thing on my list. Thank you, Santa.

Sincerely ,

Dear Mrs. Clause,
How do you deal with having a husband so completely consumed in his work, that he hardly has time for you?  I don't understand how you have managed to be so supportive and understanding. Are there any pieces of advice you would be willing to share with me? Also, would you please make sure that santa custom makes #1 for me, please? thank you.

November 14, 2009

making the best of what you have.

 John and I have gone through a lot of hardships, probably more than most "just starting out" married couples have had. I'm not saying that everyone else's struggles are not a big deal and we've had worse, but that our situation is unique. In the midst of these trials, John and I have really come to enjoy the simple things in life. We can't afford to go out to the movies, or even rent a redbox on the weekend like we did as an engaged couple. We sit at home at night an try to catch whatever appealing movie comes on the TV. We live with all the commercials by kissing until the movie comes back on. The last time we went out to eat was at applebee's a month and a half ago. it was 1/2 off happy hour, and we shared appetizers. but, I have come to learn that I really enjoy cooking for john, and i try to make each meal special. For his 23rd birthday, Instead of taking him to dinner and a movie, I took him to hollywood video so he could rent a free video game, made him dinner, laid a blanket out on the grass, lit some candles, and had a picnic in our front yard. Then I spent the rest of the night watching him do his homework. I didn't even have a cake mix or frosting to bake him a birthday cake, so I made him brownies from scratch. The one thing I thought made his birthday special was after eating, we laid out on the blanket and talked about traditions for our family. Especially birthday traditions. 
It's really the small and precious moments that have brought us happiness. Even though I wish EVERYDAY, that we had money for food, and  that I could go buy myself a new deodorant without thinking about how much money i had left for electricity the next week. but things are ok. we have a home, and a car that runs. 
we have parents that love us, and that have a lot of experience being poor themselves. we get lots of survival advice. most of all, this time has brought me closer to my savior. I used to want all that money could afford. This poverty once made me feel deprived and suffocated. Now I have learned that all of the finer things in life aren't that good anyway. I'm going to keep shopping at Goodwill on super saturdays, use every coupon, and let my husband pull perfectly good furniture out of the dumpster outside our townhouse. My husband was my inspiration for this post. He gets excited about everything! we just got back from Lowes with new pipes for our leaky sink, and bought 3 plungers for each bathroom just so we spent all the money on the gift card we were given.(we needed them too) He adorably said, swinging a plunger around " i don't know why I am so excited about these plungers, But i really am" with a larger than life smile.  What a thing to get excited about!  We got a pet emergency clinic magnet in the mail and he proudly put it on our freezer with a smile. when our sink was fixed he gave a little "hooray!" He is such an optimist:)   He is the reason I have hope. I love him more and more everyday. 

November 6, 2009

weight loss update.

not a whole lot has changed. I have been drinking about half a gallon of water a day, and that has really helped with the bloating. I lost another inch in my waist. I have been doing a little bit of belly dancing that they show on  the fit tv channel. My portion control is going great. I have been using our little bread plates as my dinner plate to kind of trick myself into thinking I am eating a plateful of food. It's working really well. I also have been keeping true to my diet of lower sugar and salt intake. I am flavoring my food with lemon juice and fresh garlic, and not just dumping  a bunch of salt on my plate. I was craving sweets like mad yesterday, so I "splurged" and got a 100 calorie pack of caramel yogurt along with a tub of fat free whipped topping. It was delicious. All in all, It's becoming a very slow process just cause I am not into working out that much, but I can feel my stomache flattening, my headaches are few and far between, and honestly, my mood and general mental health are doing much, much better. which is a reward all in it's own. I'm learning that you don't have to deprive yourself, you just need to find better options. Rewards are also best when they are not food.

November 5, 2009

Trip to utah

We made it back home in one piece. I feel like i have a million things to write about.
The purpose of our trip was to attend our good friend's wedding. John and I were lucky enough to have his parents come with us. They drove and paid for gas, which was a huge blessing. We are so poor!
I have always loved road trips, but Meyers family road trips are SO MUCH BETTER.
John was not even in the car for 2 hours yet when he pulled out his stupid laptop and started playing video games on it. what happened to talking with your wife sitting next to you in the back seat? hoser.
He got what he deserved. about twenty minutes later, he rolled down the window so he could barf. ha ha.
I should have taken a picture.

I was able to listen to Twilight on CD on the way up. I'm not a twilight virgin anymore! I swear I was the last person to read it. We also got to listen to Murder by the book, which was pretty good. Kind of slow, but still readable. We finally got to the nevada order, and the hoover dam was undergoing some pretty amazing construction. The meyers family tradition is to come up with as many "dam jokes" as possible while still in the vicinity. 

such as " stop the dam car so i can use the dam bathroom" and,  look at all these dam people, they're everywhere" and so i decided to give it a try. " look at the damn dam!" it didn't work so well.

Before long we were in Las Vegas. I have never been there so my sweet father in-law obliged me by driving down the strip. they can keep it. I didn't feel the need to take pictures cause everyone knows what vegas looks like. we stopped at a nearby gas station and had a car-picnic lunch because it was like 40 degrees outside and the wind was blowing pretty good. John and I , and I'm pretty sure mom fell asleep until cedar city Utah. It was SNOWING! I don't remember snow, and it's been a lifetime since i have seen it. Naturally, I was like a little kid. It was exhilarating! We stopped in Beaver for an Ice cream cone from the cheese factory. I have been converted to cache valley ice cream now. I had their homemade chocolate peanut butter ice cream. Delicious!

This is John eating his pumpkin ice cream in beaver. It's snowing outside, and he volunteered to pump gas.

The next morning was good. I am sorry to say that I was in a seriously Bitchy mood during the whole trip, so every wrong turn John made, the more Irritated I got. But the sealing helped me to snap out of it. at least for an hour. It was the first sealing I have attended as a witness. The mount Timponogos Temple is beautiful.

I could feel the spirit strongly as Bryce led Anna into the room. I could tell they really loved each other. The sealing was beautiful, and my mind flashed back to mine. I was so nervous and a little scared, but calm at the same time.  We hung out in provo for most of the day. We looked around the art museum after the wedding luncheon at the wilkenson's center. I don't know why I am so bitter about BYU but, if my kids tell me they want to go there for collage, I would tell them " start saving your money now, cause I ain't payin' for it". I think it's because I have a ton of friends that go there, and they get sucked in and loose track of the rest of the world.... kind of like going into disney world. I pick disney.

The reception was amazing. It wasn't extravagant or even formal, but it was so simple and elegant, i had a hard time pulling myself away from the comforting atmosphere. The theme was fall. All the colors and smells and tastes of fall. marvelous! I feel stupid that we didn't take a picture with them! I'm so lame. they are coming down in about a week.... I will get a picture with them then.
Any way.....
The next day was pretty lethargic. We carved pumpkins and ate doughnuts and had apple cider and hot cocoa. It was nice to just do nothing, although I was pretty anxious to get away from all those kids             
 we also went trunk or treating with the nieces and nephews. john dressed up in his old wizard costume, and I dressed like a mad scientist. ZERO cost for those costumes. I just wore john's lab coat and goggles he uses at school.....and teased my hair like crazy. I got lots of compliments.
the next day we went to the salt lake temple with john's brother, Peter and his wife, Cynthia. AMAZING! I have dreamed about going inside that temple ever since i was a little girl. We attended a live session, which was pretty powerful, and i learned much more. John and I were going to do the temple square tours and sites and stuff, but i went back to the car to put on a pair of pants, and they didn't fit. I was depressed and ruined it for us. we took a quick walk to the lion house and then went home.  we also noticed the flags at the front of the church office building were at half mast, but the doors were locked, so we couldn't go in and ask why. we also looked at the beehive house and noticed that the two were connected, probably for the tours. anyway.... i was in a bad mood, and refused to let john get a picture of my face. I was so moody. blah. glad that's over. 

we came back to the birthday party for niece Audrey, pictured below. I hope my babies turn out that good.

She LOVES grandpa Meyers to pieces. She calls him " umpa"
All the little boy had a blast trick or treating with the daddies, and john and I stayed and played canasta with Cynthia. Cynthia made an awesome birthday cake for audrey... should have gotten a picture. It was a giant pumpkin.

 Nephews Matthew, Spencer and Jacob- cuties!

It was a good trip, and we were sad to leave, but I am so glad to be home. Large families are good and wonderful in small amounts.