Showing posts from February, 2011

Brace yourself.

Updated 1/19/2013

*it's been almost two years since Paxton joined our family. I don't know if it's because of the time that has passed, or if it's because i'm pregnant again and reminiscing about going through labor , but I'm remembering a lot more details of his birth story

I had a baby. That still sounds bizarre to me, but I did. I had a baby. Life does not feel remotely close to what it used to feel like.  that's probably a good thing. It's something I have never felt before.It's a remarkable change. It's squeaky clean. A page has turned. It's a New life.
The superficial living has absentmindedly left us. It's not about us anymore. It's about US now. I feel a stronger gravitational pull towards my family, my faith, my husband, and new experiences in general. No, I am not the same person anymore. I have SO MUCH to loose now. My level of vulnerability seems through the roof. I feel unable to protect myself from pain- and I'm not so sure I…